Working Out

I am trying to commit myself to working out on a regular basis. I know that I avoid activities because I am not comfortable with my weight, my appearance, and when I really stop and think about it, I am causing my family to avoid activities, too. That is really not fair to them. I want to be comfortable in my own skin, and I really never have been. So, I started walking on my treadmill on Friday. I walked for just over an hour, and I walked for an hour and 3 minutes today. I use the handweights for a while while walking to work on my arms a bit. I hope that maybe it will help them to feel more toned and less flabby, as well.

I have a full length mirror which leans again the wall in my bedroom. While in the treadmill, I can see the backs of my legs. Not a pretty picture, but one that I hope to change with more and more walking on the treadmill.

We are going to Jamaica in June, and I don't want to be miserable the whole time that I am there and feel subconscious every moment. I know that I always feel uncomfortable the first few days, and then I seem to settle in a bit and just accept it and have fun. But, I really would like to be more confident in my appearance so that I did not have to deal with it at all. One day. I just have to keep walking. I am good at walking on the treadmill, and I know that I can do it, so I just have to keep making time for it. Then, who knows ... maybe I will move on to something even bigger.